EDIT...ok i decided im gonna b using that xanga most of the time now. I guess this one's dead then for a while lol

New xanga: www.xanga.com/this_sweet_surrender

i got a lil bored of this one =)

xoxo...stef

sometimes i sit here and i wonder if its worth it. i think about it, and i usually get a good cry out of it too. and after all that, i still wonder if its worth it. but then i try n think of all the great things n i remember that honestly....it is. i just have to get myself to that point right now. ive shd my tears n now its time to just forget about it i guess, even tho i dunno if i want to. its not resolved, but to some1 it is. arg i hate this. sry for the coded/venting entry. i just kinda needed it.

xoxo..stef

im sooo pissed. im trying to figure out my schedule and the accounting class i wanted is all filled!! now i wont have accounting with 2 of my favorite buddies in the whole wide world oh well i guess life's just a bitch

on another note, friday i have off from school because of the Pope's funeral. it actually works out great for me cuz that night is nicole's sweet 16 so i have alllllllllll day to relax and get ready for her big night <3 hehe. ill update on sat or sun maybe with some pics

xoxo...stef

so tina n i went shopping today. we havent been in a while, and we spent a lot of money. i came to a conclusion tho. the more we go shopping, the less we spend each time. so, we gotta go shopping more ofter bought a new pair of sneakers a new bag n a case for my fone. n it all cost a lot lol. now im just procrastinating so i better go do my hw.

xoxo...stef

so i guess i might as well update if anyone cares...

i feel so blah right now. ive been sitting in my room in the dark for the past 15 minutes just thinking. i feel so inadequate right now and no1s around. its one of those moments i have where im just so down. i was crying b4 and my mom saw me. i hate when she sees me cry cuz i kno shes thinking that i should just toughen up n not cry. im just so bummed out about myself, and about things in general. i feeel like a total bitch n jackass right now. i didnt even eat much for dinner cuz i wasnt hungry. tomorrow i have work, and i don't wanna go. id rather just waste the day away staring at the computer and playing some mindless game. at least im good for something, right? i should stop writing cuz im in one of those moods and i dont wanna write sumthin so the whole world knows whats goin on. i guess that's just the way i am. id rather keep things to myself than talk about it n tell every1 my problems. not like anyone would listen anyway...oh well until next time